no you dont know what its like,

[Shadewing]

[atrb=border,0,true][cs=7][bg=181717] the count;; the cat;; Shadestar the involved;; Sin the notes;; Shadestar knew that he was in the worlds of the dreams again. The corroding, cold dreams, which he feared of falling into every night, and what made his fur prickle during his waking hours. This was his third dream, and he knew he would be in for it. He had the perfect opportunity to slaughter his brother, but he skipped on it. Sin would not be pleased. It was raining in the Dark Forest this time. There was no sunlight. There was no moonlight. There was only a dimly lit area around him, which the feline's acute eyes for darkness could just pick up. He thought he could see the eyes all over the entire forest, and he stayed still with fear. He knew they were all the eyes of Sin, and illusion.. They were all the same ghastly frames, in different places, glistening, like a savage cat tearing its first throat out.. "Shadestar, you've failed me. I would take away a life from you, but, I think that you just got off to a bad start, and you'll need those later.." Kill him now. Do it. Kill him now.. "I hope you're recalling what you thought with Drydusk." "Yes, I was. Sorry if that was unnerving or anything." "Good. You're thinking of putting others before you.. despite the consequences. Now, what you are to do, is to force RiverClan into alliance. Send small raids to each Clan, and try to steal some of their items. We have given New Leaf to the forest, but if they take the sprouts now, the plants will be almost useless later on.. simply starve them for a few days, and then, attack already weak RiverClan. Make them join with ShadowClan, or threaten to destroy the next generation of otters." Shadestar's head was almost spinning. Would he need to kill the kits? How would his patrols be unnoticed? "Preference and luck, I suppose. " [nd]